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Hope I hv a new start in everything~~~

Now ald midnight liao ler...i think alot of ppl should sleep ald & i alone at home now anyway i still can't fall in sleep..dunno y.....
I jus packing my stuff jus now...cos 2 more days i hv to move out from tis house ald...even though i hv been staying here ard 2 yrs but still feel tat luv tis house so much..mayb ald use to it....but at de end aiiiii.....
I duno wat should i type anymore...jus felt tat so tired...........almost 2 yr i stay at s'pore,but now i still like hvng ntg....i duno y still wan to continue over here...izit tis is de life style i wan???izit i hv to stay here in my future...i totally hv no idea...n im totally LOST!!!!
i really mis my family....my buddy buddy & my previous ME~~~I try my best to 4get everything but i really felt tat is damn tough...i remember i told u even i move out i oso dun hope to c u again cos i really hate u so much...wit all my heart i swear~~~
mayb u will think since whn i bcum so petty...but i noe i can't 4 give u...atleast by de time being i really can't....
I should give a break 4 all of tis nonsenses...i dun wan to c my self bcum so worse...but i noe god is fair....i'll be fine even now i hv to facing all de tough problem....

Busy..busy..busy

Recently really so busy....cos jus change my new job...everyday jus working,working,working.....even until sick oso no time c doctor...but so far i quite luv my current job...alot of thing hv to learn...tis is a new challenge 4 myself....
On july i hvng sum problem wit 1 of my close fren...so far we know each other ard 5 yr ald...from stranger to close fren is not an easy way....i appreciate n oso cherish tat knowing a fren jus like him...but recently we hv sum arguement...mayb from 1st i ald make a mistake...cos i thought he really is different from other guy and i thought we really can become best fren but at de end i noe gal n boy can't become gud fren....cos he told me tat he will jealous whn he know i with my bf,said i din consider his situation,day by day he getting hurt until so deeply....i know wat he trying to do...but i jus din give him any answer....cos i know tat once i make any decision on it mayb it will jus spoil our friendship...i dun intend to c anything like tat happen...i jus trying to protect our friendship... tat's y i try to avoid everything....at de same time he told me he dun wan continue like tat...so he decide to step out de 1st step,end up he hv a gf...as a fren i'm glad to hear tat but his new gf dun like we too close...of course i wont force him to make any decision...i jus a fren...wat i can do??angry??not really....but de most i felt is heartbroken....5 yr friendship can end up jus like tat....so whr is de value bout friendship???anyway he will go to oversea soon...jus wish him all de best in his future.....I'll alws luv my fren...

Terrible~~~~

Ystd we argue again....but i choose to be keep quiet cos i dunno wat should i say....actually 4 past 1 year we ald hv problem,i thought we ald settle our problem but actually not...funny huh~~~ U said dun like my attitude i CHANGE! U said dun like my hot temper i CHANGE! But did u give me a chance to change???NO u didn't!!!! I try my best to protect out relationship but at de end wat should i get??? Y until now I still wan to be wit U???Dunno how many times i ask myself!!!!But i really dunno....mayb i worried???mayb i dun wan to give up jus like tat...really dunno wat im doing now!!!!damn it!!!! U told me u so tired...so stress...tat's y u need a break~~~but how bout me???izit bcos u hv to take care of me tat's y u feel stress??I thought all de couple hv to take care each n other rite???but y u'll feel so stress???Pls don't worry bout me i noe how to tk myself....Everytime we quarrel I told u I wan to move out,but u said I can't tk myself....u stay wit me jus bcos u wan to tk of me???not bcos u love me???Everytime u told me de same thing.u dun wan me to regret...I choose to be wit u of course i wont regret......To be frank i really dunno wat u wan me to do~~~~i oso sick n tired of my current situation..... At de same time u alws be wit her!!!u din't keep our promise........u noe i hate her so much y u still wan so close wit her???u told me u guys jus a normal fren.......u think im a idiot or wat???i din say i wan to control ur life but atleast i wan u to be honest.....she alws send u all de fucking msg,alws call u lou gong.....thn wat u'll think??normal fren???she alws said she is de 1 who suffer n will wait 4 u no matter wat...did she noe tat she is de 3rd party now???y she jus think bout herself???y she never think bout my situation???FUCKING BITCH PLS jus fuck off from my life can!!!! Enough!!!Enough!!!Enough!!! I dun need u pity me,if we really cannot make it i wont force u anymore!!!!!!!!!Is gud 4 both of us....

心情好糟~~~

第一次在这边就写下这么糟的心情....心好乱...有人可以和我聊聊吗???这种心情没人会懂的...除了无奈还是无奈....曾经以为只要真心的付出就会得到回报,但往往事与愿违....是我太天真了吗??还是我错了???也许我太爱你了,反而让你觉的这是一种负担....这样的爱情会有结果吗???我真的不懂.....心以然是空空的........我们之间也许存在着太多的问题了.....好累好累....而她的出现扰乱了你的心吗???你知道吗??她一次又一次的闯进我的生活让我很痛苦,但我却无能为力....心痛的喘不过气了,但以然还要装做很开心去面对身边每一个人........曾经的伤害让我变的更倔强,变的更会在他人面前掩饰自己......为什么被伤害的永远都是我???更多的不甘心又能怎样呢??